Musings of an Idle mind

I write this post as a result of a lot of vetti time... As they say "AN IDLE MIND IS A DEVIL'S WORKSHOP"...but sometimes it so happens that we get to think a lot about ourselves and what we feel about certain things in life, our preferences etc....I had a serious discussion about this with one of my friend the other day and as any discussion would this too came to an unconclusive end.

Now let me go into the details of the discussion. It all started off this way...I was seriously thinking about how I was in India......hmmm....priti....shy, introvert, quiet but often mistaken to be proud, talkative but only to a select few....always moves around in a small group, considered childish, innocent...and the one last thing ...loves to be always in the good books of everyone around her.....ooooh how I hated her and everything about her....!!! None of my friends now are ready to believe that I was like this...now that sounds better doesnt it???

Now that I m own when I think back I feel why should I strive be be good to everbody (Parents, friends, teachers and everyone who had a special meaning in my life)...why can't I be just myself....all the while that i had been in India I was always trying to be what somebody else wanted me to be...I never even asked myself the following question "what do you want in life?", "How would you like to spend your life"...I m not talking about the major decisions like career or anything of that sort..It is the smaller things that matter the most....like dressing, food habits...friends...and the way you react to certain situations.....I've done everything in such a way that made others happy...not that I was happy about doing what I did...

Now when I go back will people accept me as I am...That is the whole problem...people are not ready to accept that you are changed and that you are no more the same person that you were before...why is that so......Is change applicable only for things around us..not for humans??? Come on guys....believe that people can change and dont alienate them...:-) ....CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT THING IN LIFE.