Hello Morning Blues :)

If you thinkin about Monday morning blues..you are slightly mistaken...I m talkin about everyday morning blues. Ok there I go...one more day promising to sleep soon and get up early in the morning...atleast to look fresh on the most important day of my life(My First Interview)..and did I sleep??..no...One more sleepless night and sun was already up before I coaxed myself to sleep....


I forced myself to get out of the bed and for a second I even thought about missing the interview and getting back to sleep...(how could I even dream of doing that..)..weird..what things sleeplessness can do to you :P ;)..


I m just not a morning person..Its become a routine...Its just not possible for me to sleep early...I even tried the golden rule of "Early to Bed Early to rise makes a man healthy wealthy and wise" Looks like I have to "give up" on becoming healthy wealthy and wise :P...There is one day in the whole week when I am forced to get up early...:) and I realize how beautiful morning is...especially during spring beautiful sunshine coming in through the trees...trees and plants laden with different colored flowers....and orange bellied birds...I even had a feeling that orange fruits grew wings and started flying and even on that single day when i get up early do I enjoy all this???Nope...I find comparing myself to the rabbit from Alice in Wonderland that goes into the rabbit tunnel " Oh dear..Oh dear I m getting late" and dont even notice people around me leave alone..nature...When I did get a chance to notice...I vowed to myself that I am going to get up early every morning and start working...and the very afternoon I found myself tired...weird..:P...thats how things work out with me and the very same day I reverted back to my own self :)




Nights are beautiful...I just wish i could be out in the midnight with not an ounce of fear..just roam about on a full moon day..or sit down in the campus...have a nice talk with someone....*sigh**sigh*...Its near impossible now :( Now what is it about night that makes me stay awake...hmm lemme think...is it becos everything around you is so peaceful..is it becos there is a vague familiarity with darkness cos of my long association with it..is it cos I am more alert and my senses work better during the night..or is it becos thats the only time of the full day when I get to be my own self...I can do anything without anyone observing my actions...like I can talk to myself...sing and dance and freak out without being noticed...I dont know...whatever it is I find solace in the night...its so soothing, calm and peaceful...I can walk in the darkness without having a light to guide me ....that close it is..I know it sounds like evil :P but I dont see darkness as evil...it is just another part of the day...When I finish my work in the wee hours of morning and go to sleep I have a sense of acheivement and I dont get that feeling if I finish my work at the end of the day...hmmmm...In darkness we trust of sixth sense and gut feeling....There is a sense of invincibility in darkness...no one to fight against...its completely your world :)...Lemme stop my bragging with this..all these ramblings are by a tired sleepless soul..with a lotta work to do...but daydreamin about sleep :).



The one day that I had a chance to get up early it was a beautiful rainy day..I desperately wanted to go out and get wet in the rain...and have fun...mom is not here to tell me not to get wet too :P...why dint I do that..have I become so accustomed to being a good girl that i dont do anything cranky???...There are times I wonder as to why I m not being myself...why dont I just go out and have fun and do all those cranky things that I wanted to do all the time but never dared to do so...??



Buried deep down are those desires of my heart!!
Will It ever come out before my soul does part??

My first attempt at poem..Horrible isnt it??? :P:P I m feeling drowsy already...Lemme get back to work..Meanwhile found this old song of IR when I was thinkin about rain...this was like a musical treasure unearthed for me...Oh no I m not singing this time...I'll relieve ye'al from that torture for some time to come as donkey's braying has gotten really worse...:P..Meanwhile Enjoy this song :)

Mandhil Nindravai

"Unadhu thooralil iniya saaralil theendum dhegam silirkudhamma
Nanindha pozhudhinil kulirndha manadhinil edho aasai thudikkudhamma
Manidha jadhiyil pasiyum dhagamum unnal engum theerumamma
Vari thandha vallal endru paril unnai solvadhundu
inamum kulamum irukkum ulagil anaivarum ingu sarisamam endru unarthidum mazhaye"